To realize what
you are, meditate on the philosophy of life which can help you
change your old habits of mind. Say to yourself, “The trees give
up. Why do I not?” What each thought. Ask yourself, “Is this
thought living in the past?” If so, then you know that you are not
living in harmony with the season. If you notice that your mind
likes to escape into the barn of old memories, say to yourself, “I
am going out of the cycle of life because I am living in the
past. The past has already given me the result I wanted and skill
I am clinging to a cancelled check.”
By watching you
are able to untie yourself. You resolve, “I want to go further.”
Many good things are waiting for you if you untie yourself from
the past. All the springs come from winter. What you call
barrenness is to the trees nothing but a period in which they have
to wait in expectation. This period is for your renewal.
It is a period of
transition, before the coming of spring, before the rebirth of new
life. In reality it is a change Tagore has given us a beautiful
analogy. We are like the baby nursing at the breast. When the
mother notices that milk has dried up on one side, she moves the
baby to the other side. In between, the baby cries. He does not
see that in between is the moment of awaiting the new fresh milk.
He does not see tat there is no real loss.
By watching you
are able to see how old habits of thinking disconnect you from
you’re here and now and make you unhappy. Are you projecting the
concept of father figure, husband, wife, or other image onto
another person? If so, then you do not see that individual as an
individual. Are you comparing the present moment with the past?
If so, the freshness of life is not enjoyed. You go on mission
good feelings, deep communications. And people get bored with
you, because you always bring out the old imprints of mind, the
worn-out things. They you find someone with the same problem as
yours and you wallow together, dragging each other down.
The philosophy of
vibrations changes your whole life style. Your level of
consciousness ultimately attracts people from the same level of
consciousness as your own. So you have to raise your
consciousness. New life cannot come only from words. It must
come from new thinking new vibrations.
To bring those new
vibrations, drop the old, clear you files, throw away the junk.
Say to yourself: “I don’t want those old thoughts, those negative
memories, those conditionings.” When you go on clearing, your mind
becomes light. But before these old patterns go for good, they
will tempt you and play tricks on you. If you are not careful,
they will keep on giving flickering signs to you and they may make
new scars on your consciousness.
You must not allow
them to make you angry and frustrated. You must talk to them and
tell them: “Now you go! You are old tenants and your lease is up!
I will not renew your contract.” Once you recognize that these
so-called tenants are unwanted guests, then you are ready too
evict them. You realize that you must have invited them into your
consciousness long ago when you wee in a hazy, ignorant state of
mind. Old habits of thinking know how to make themselves at home,
but no matter how comfortable or comforting they may appear to
you, you must be firm in your resolve to empty your mental house.
In this sentient
living energy does not give up the old insentient, the stale
stagnant matter becomes a burden to you and a cause of pain. The
more thorough the mental housecleaning, the more buoyant you
feel. The more you allow dry leaves to drop away, the more aware
you are of what you are in essence and of what is relevant to your
present living. Now you are open to receive the new.
What is the new
life? None other than that living conscious energy pulsating and
vibrating in all life forms. It is your own latent power. To
enter the path of meditation you must have a conscious awareness
of your latent power. If you are not aware of that treasure
within you, you are not going to long for it. You are not going
to reach for it. If you see the end in the beginning, you will
take the beginning to the end.
For that you must
believe in yourself. Until now you have believed in everybody but
yourself. Now you realize that you are holding a precious diamond
with in you. Polish it and your radiance comes out. Otherwise it
remains like a rough stone, covered will so many layers. Discover
yourself! Visualize and say to yourself, “Just now I am rough
diamond, but I see inside me is brilliance. I am rich with
knowledge, vision and bliss.”
When you have seen
yourself you really work on yourself. You Upanishad—sit close.
Sit close to whom? To yourself. To the “diamond-cutter” who
knows just where to cut so that your roughness is broken and the
whole diamond comes out. The teacher is not always one who wears
the clothes of a guru. The guru is anyone or anything who removes
the darkness of you ignorance, who helps you uncover your
brilliance. Once you uncover your self, you become your own
teacher.
Once there was a
pleasure-hunting king who had a pastime of hunting. One evening
he was sitting by a lake fishing: tempting them, luring them with
bait and piercing their mouths with anglers and hooks. The sunset
was particularly striking and the king was moved. It was the
rainy season and the sunset produced the full spectrum of seven
colors. The king became so happy that he continued to watch
eagerly.
Slowly he saw the
floor fade away; darkness came over everything. He saw the dark
and he realized in a flash: “O, is this my life? I am pulsating
with pleasures. How long will this remain? O, let me change and
be a friend to all living beings before the colors of my youth
fade away!”
The king became so
deeply aware of his inner consciousness that he put an end to his
former self indulgent ways and cruel pastime. The sunset inspired
him to see the quality of his soul. This transformed his life.
In this incident the sunset was his guru.
Meditation is
this: a complete transformation of consciousness, an uncovering of
that indestructible energy which lies hidden in you. Otherwise
you can sit and recit a mantrum to get calm, but it will only be a
temporary balm. You will return to the rat race unchanged.
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